Well, after months of uncertainty and limited pay my other half was unemployed from this morning.
It now puts massive amounts of pressure for me to start earning as much as possible in order to cover all the bills. I know he will be out looking on Monday, and hopefully picking up some agency work, but I still feel like I am going to have the burden of bringing the money in on me.
So how does this fit with mummy hood?
Right now I don't feel like it does. I'm at a loss as to how I can fit in being the mummy I want to be at the same time as working every hour I can and doing extra things at night to bring in cash.
I know hundreds of people are in similar situations, and I know that people cope. My precious little thing wont really know any different as her dad will still be around with her, but I'll not be as able to do all the playing with her.
I guess we manage the hand we're dealt. My hand isn't a good one at the minute, but it could be so much worse. At least I am in work and should be able to keep the roof over our heads for a few months whilst he gets himself on his feet again.
I guess being a mummy also involves the responsible side of life as well. Making sure that my family is cared for had a different meaning to me this morning. It meant having Friday mummy days and cooking tea and baking days. Now, I will do the working days and coming home to snuggle days like a daddy normally does.
My new hope for 2014- to get through the year and have financial security again.